microthrills's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Move me. The BF is trying to help me come out of my shell. It is very difficult for me to open up in the way that he wants. He wants to know everything. Ev-er-ry-thing. He does deserve to know. There are ways I can and should treat him better. I write to him constantly but a lot of emails do not get sent. Sometimes I do this more for my benefit than the actual intention of sending the letter. I'm thinking of slowly starting to post some of the letters here. Well, in time. He does have a knack for opening me up though. In the beginning of our sexual relationship, I wanted the lights off and would barely let him touch my ass without flinching. He pushed and showed me patience at the same time. Little by little, the lights went on, and we began experimenting more and more. These days, I don't deny him. I let his hands go where they want and I really enjoy learning how to be uninhibited. I'm not where he would like me to be, yet. One of the best sexual experiences I have ever had, was with him last weekend. The night before, I hosted a BBQ and the BF slept over. The next morning, we woke up very early and began touching and talking and hours flew by. We shared fantasies and stories and showed affection with licking, and touching, and pulling, and the most intense fucking. Making love slowly and letting each other indulge in any fantasy we wanted. Lots of role playing and variety and an eagerness to please. There is a look he gets in his face sometimes that I feel like I could stare at forever. I like pain during sex sometimes. Sometimes when I feel overwhelmed by emotions during sex, I like him to smack my ass, or feel his hands on my throat so it gives me something physical to focus on. Sometimes, when I am on top of him and he wants me to tell him a fantasy or a dirty thought and my mouth opens but nothing comes out. I should know by now that nothing is taboo with him but there is that reflex to keep it hidden inside. It happens less and less often now. The BF writes here: http://shorn4porn.blogspot.com/ Sometimes he posts what I write to him. 7:52 p.m. - 2009-06-21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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